god

well, after being a christian for so long,
i didn't know that there is an age requirement for r/s.
hais, thats how it ended, MY LIFE FUCKING FAIL.
i really don't see the link, god why is this happening.
i'm serious in every single r/s this year,
time and again i find myself having moe reasons to start playing grr.

went drinking with ian, yonghao, kirk that group.
was going to get drunk but i stopped myself.
didn't feel like spilling things out.
i hate it, these feelings. I'm smoke free,
i'm still amaze how easy was it ytd to smoke yet i didn't.
i need her back, if the problem lies with me, i have no comment.

i fail as a human.
hold on marcus, it's just 6 years :(

attached!

sup guys, hehe i'm attached!
to those people who are thinking wa this boy hongster,
yea fuck you uh! HAHA
why for waste my time being sad over a girl who probably fuck care,
when i can give my love to another girl who will love me the same..

yeap just a short post to tell my readers, i doubt there's any LOL.

and, i love my friends, you guys have been through with me alot hehe
i love my friends :)

lies

haha you and your lies,
i guess i have no more feelings of you anymore
hate you ttm, can't believe you are such a person haha.

i swear you talk alot of bullshit.. :(

on a lighter note, such a fun day ytd!
followed my friends to fish tank,
gosh so awkward!
had a nice dream i swear,
my crush was my gf and we went overseas tgt,
when we came back singapore we meet each other at the chalet.
we saw our pri sch friends and all. we kissed. sweeet~

ITS JUST A FUCKING DREAM.

promises

remember we had that promise, to never say break up to each other?
well, i knew that one of us would break it, and i was certain it would be me.
you proved me wrong, though.
remember how we said we wanted to get a couple tattoo,
one without names, just something that would remind each other
of the other party?
well, thats sweet, really.
it's over now, 18 days have passed.
i really hope this is just a bad dream..
you really aren't giving this thing another shot are you?
guess it;s just me living in my fucking pathetic past.

my friends told me to move on, i can't ,
i'm just too into you.
i've tried to hate you, needles to say, i failed.
i'm just a guy trying to be the best bf,
but you ought to let me know what went wrong
instead of simply "we did'nt click"
i really want this r/s back.

i swear i'm suppose to forget you,
but you seemed so happy.
so much for being just a fan.
i didn't knew you this way, hugging people freely and all.
you've changed. i want the old you.. really.
guess thats not gonna happen at all.

you're one of a kind, really.

you shall always be a part of me i guess :(

you

it has always been yourself that you worry over,
you text me telling me that you did not toy with my feelings,
but thats how i felt. you wrote on twitter telling my friends like
i treated you badly in the past, i never said anything.

just go, i can't get the old you back. but can the new you please
get away from my life. you're fucking annoying whenever i think that you
can just end a relationship like that. well done seriously.

i love you, and i hate you. my life is damn f up ever since you're gone.
what more do you want. you're already so happy now. fml

through

i've thought things through,
she's not coming back anw if she wasn't serious.
haha so long never get played in r/s, it sucks really.
but i shall try my best to get over her completely.
gosh, my 5 months wasted on her sian.

haha jolie lim, i love you but you had to toy with my feelings.
idk what you want exactly but over means over le ba.

thoughts

well, i think i can try being her friend all over again..
hopefully that will get her back? idk :(
i miss her ba.. its's nearing 5 and i can;t sleep.
going to malaysia tomorrow, hopefully have fun there..

i bought my new braun buffel wallet yeay :)
buy with my own money hehe so happy.
actually i asked for $50 from my dad but apparently
it;s too much for him.
the reason why i wanted a change of wallet is
because i didn't know my brown checkered wallet is
trying to copy LV..
so ps lor..
then the $50 for my bday also kena scolded :(

i remember how when i was p5 my dad said
"4 years later i'll get whatever you want, now is tough times
daddy promised to make it up to you"

well, 5 years later i still can't get what i wanted,
and yet i'm always scolded for breaking my promises.
i wonder who is the biggest liar in the family?

i think i fail greatly as a human,
i'm not good looking, i'm not rich,
and i don't do well for my studies..

i think my parents are really unreasonable but
i can't quarrel with them, in the end they will still win.
fucking hate my life, so much to tahan.

i'm not superman i guess.

holding on

i can't let go of her, why the fk did i fall so deeply in love with her..
she won't come back, i know that but i can't let this go :(
i miss jolie :(
come back, please?
:(
:(
:(

i've given up

well.. this few days wthout her have been really awful.
smoking,cutting and more smoking..
i missed her badly, i guess she's just not coming back..
she changed a lot, i guess i'm just in love with the old her.
the new her make me feel kinda disgusted? idk whats the word for it..
i love the times i spend with her, times where we would just love spending time together on the bus, hugging each other, her helping me blow my hair, me just being quiet and admiring her. well, these days are gone and i got to move on.

well this may be the last time i'm saying it but: i love you jolie, if only one day you want me back, you just have to say it and i'm sure my heart will belong to you again.

all that can be said are spoken, i guess i should be getting used to heartbreak by now. /wrist max