i've given up

well.. this few days wthout her have been really awful.
smoking,cutting and more smoking..
i missed her badly, i guess she's just not coming back..
she changed a lot, i guess i'm just in love with the old her.
the new her make me feel kinda disgusted? idk whats the word for it..
i love the times i spend with her, times where we would just love spending time together on the bus, hugging each other, her helping me blow my hair, me just being quiet and admiring her. well, these days are gone and i got to move on.

well this may be the last time i'm saying it but: i love you jolie, if only one day you want me back, you just have to say it and i'm sure my heart will belong to you again.

all that can be said are spoken, i guess i should be getting used to heartbreak by now. /wrist max