marcus

promises

2011-03-30T22:47:00.002+08:00

And i still thought you were different.
Turns out you only agree to club only when i'm around just to patronise me.
Hate people who do that.
"Promises are meant to be broken" yea fuck off uh.

Really don't know what i will do if she just go club.
Maybe i'm fucking gonna go back on my word too.
Thats all for now, and i thought i have been through deeper shit.

seriously, being lied to by your parents is normal,
being cheated by the one you love is " ".

bike!

2011-03-26T03:53:00.001+08:00

So.. i played bike today! okay actually its ytd :)
Quite fun hehe, like after so long.
This few days i've been sleeping at this kind of stupid timing lalala.
And... aiya forget it, this is too open.
K BYE

sick :(

2011-03-23T02:21:00.001+08:00

i think i'm falling sick damnit :(
just now ijiot laugh at me on the phone cos i heard an
extra voice in the phone and i got damn scared.
yes to those people thinking that i'm a pussy,
try being out alone at night and experiencing that.

Anw was SUPER IRRITATED with her but yea..
now that i stop working, i'm freaking bored everyday sia.
aiya thats all for now.

AND JAZREEL IF YOU'RE LOOKING AT THIS,
EVEN THOUGH YOU ALWAYS IRRITATE ME, I STILL LOVE YOU A LOT A LOT.
MORE THAN YOU DO :p

okayyyy

2011-03-22T12:33:00.000+08:00

so things are going one well with jazreel and i :)
but my mum ah... k nvm. HAHAA
cant wait for school to start! its getting boring.

gonna find a job later one at tampines area hehs

Seriously?

2011-03-19T12:40:00.001+08:00

My parents are fucking fail liars cb.
angry at them max.

and i always thought clubbing was to enjoy.

moving on

2011-03-18T10:37:00.003+08:00

K FUCK ALL THOSE SHIT BELOW.
i need a direction in my life really.
need to know whats best for me.
Quite determine to stop clubbing, srsly.

unhappy.

2011-03-18T10:29:00.002+08:00

I hate how things are now.
parents being unreasonable, like seriously?
i'm just talking nicely and you all have to shout,
i have feelings cb.

and her, aiya no comments la.
Whats the point of asking when you've alr made your stand.
FUCKING HATE MY LIFE NOW, WHO WANT TRADE

i'm not happy :(

2011-03-17T00:41:00.001+08:00

it just sucks how you try to communicate but a part of you just don't want to continue proving your point just cause you're too tired. idk what i'm doing sia srsly. WHERE's THER FUCKING OLD MARCUS. not that i like my past alot. just some certain personality.

K DONE ENOUGH WHINING. JUST SUCK IT UP LIKE A MAN DUDE.

AIRPORT

2011-02-26T00:22:00.002+08:00

So, i got my back inked today,
went to airport after that,
wow damn expensive haha pasta de waraku haha.

Had fun catching up with them, but gen and sammy hew never come :(

thats all for now, i miss jazreel!

:/ :)

2011-02-23T13:11:00.001+08:00

so.. i guess things fine now, we both spoke up, understood each other better.
i guess she's really special to me like really.

thats all for now, i feel like giving her happiness,
but the failure me always can't do it

i tried.

2011-02-23T01:10:00.002+08:00

remember how you say we ought to be honest to each other?
i stick to it, did you?
ytd i was really damn pissed off, swear i could have made it 13.

hate how much i love you and time and again i feel cheated.
marcus you're such a loser really.

If this continues i really dk what to do.
it may seem like i'm petty but seriously WTF.
aiyah fuck it fuck myself marcus fuck off.

still have to remain normal after all this is just. URGH CB

:/

2011-02-20T13:44:00.001+08:00

i hate feeling so uncertain every now and then.
i need to feel secured really, even though i'm a guy.

saw N's page today.. well it hurts like a bitch cb.

thats all for now, seriously feel like stop clubbing since i don't see a point anymore.

:(

2011-02-18T23:31:00.001+08:00

I FUCKING HATE TO APOLOGISE WHEN ITS NOT MY FUCKING FAULT, OBVIOUSLY.
BUT... i love her alot really

J ^^

2011-02-15T15:26:00.002+08:00

and sooooooooooooooooooooo, j became my girlfriend :)
love her lots!!!!!!
never felt so serious about a girl before.
like she's really nice to me and all!
she came over to stay last night!
i really enjoy spending times with her hehe :)

anddddddd, i'm going to taiwan during march! never been there before hmmmmmm excited! and my tattoo after that wow

club

2011-01-26T14:00:00.002+08:00

Hey guys.......
So, i've been attending clubs recently. Okay, actually only two!
My very first experience was at scape, countdown for 2011 WOOHOOOO!!!!
I got to know this girl, just call her J la haha.
I think she's really nice lei, like dk how to say.
of cos im not going to commit so fast, i hope.

My second event i go powerhouse lei hehe, its a good experience,
but something happen make me quite pissed like GRR :@

oh recently i just realised got this place very cool call Henderson Waves, WOWWWWW!
nice view, just don't be there and get caught in the rain ;)

i'm pretty satisfied with my life now actually, like work and town hehe.
poly is starting on april! i got posted to NYP, cheebs

work

2010-12-29T21:29:00.000+08:00

haha back for a quick post, i getting my pay soon! gosh can't wait!!
my mum bought a poker table for me, damn happy seriously hehe.
gonna get my parents a couple watch once i get my pay :)

getting a new tattoo son, need make appointment HAHA

rants

2010-11-09T00:40:00.002+08:00

wa buay tahan nowadays poker zz.
long story so f it.

now me and my mother never talk cos of some stupid problems la.

btw i rly think i have some gl friend, he often think he is right then like to give peopl hostile reply when clearly he doesn't know what is going on.
like seriously uh, i talk to you properly then you insist, then when i'm right you just okok, lame sia . i think you change fking alot cb buay tahan. just hope that you can be normal. you of ten find ways to run me down but seriously la, you call yourself a friend?! don't even trust me and all, fk off if you don't believe me uh.

O levels

2010-11-01T21:48:00.000+08:00

Hey!! have been real busy with O's
Thankfully it's going to be over soon!
gonna get inked hehe.
prom's coming soon, okay actually like 2 weeks plus!
but my budget enough for me to get from topman, haha bo bian lor :)

lets pray hard o level ends fats, i want go to poly!!!!

god

2010-09-25T11:27:00.002+08:00

well, after being a christian for so long,
i didn't know that there is an age requirement for r/s.
hais, thats how it ended, MY LIFE FUCKING FAIL.
i really don't see the link, god why is this happening.
i'm serious in every single r/s this year,
time and again i find myself having moe reasons to start playing grr.

went drinking with ian, yonghao, kirk that group.
was going to get drunk but i stopped myself.
didn't feel like spilling things out.
i hate it, these feelings. I'm smoke free,
i'm still amaze how easy was it ytd to smoke yet i didn't.
i need her back, if the problem lies with me, i have no comment.

i fail as a human.
hold on marcus, it's just 6 years :(

attached!

2010-09-15T21:09:00.000+08:00

sup guys, hehe i'm attached!
to those people who are thinking wa this boy hongster,
yea fuck you uh! HAHA
why for waste my time being sad over a girl who probably fuck care,
when i can give my love to another girl who will love me the same..

yeap just a short post to tell my readers, i doubt there's any LOL.

and, i love my friends, you guys have been through with me alot hehe
i love my friends :)

lies

2010-09-11T09:22:00.002+08:00

haha you and your lies,
i guess i have no more feelings of you anymore
hate you ttm, can't believe you are such a person haha.

i swear you talk alot of bullshit.. :(

on a lighter note, such a fun day ytd!
followed my friends to fish tank,
gosh so awkward!
had a nice dream i swear,
my crush was my gf and we went overseas tgt,
when we came back singapore we meet each other at the chalet.
we saw our pri sch friends and all. we kissed. sweeet~

ITS JUST A FUCKING DREAM.

promises

2010-09-10T00:42:00.002+08:00

remember we had that promise, to never say break up to each other?
well, i knew that one of us would break it, and i was certain it would be me.
you proved me wrong, though.
remember how we said we wanted to get a couple tattoo,
one without names, just something that would remind each other
of the other party?
well, thats sweet, really.
it's over now, 18 days have passed.
i really hope this is just a bad dream..
you really aren't giving this thing another shot are you?
guess it;s just me living in my fucking pathetic past.

my friends told me to move on, i can't ,
i'm just too into you.
i've tried to hate you, needles to say, i failed.
i'm just a guy trying to be the best bf,
but you ought to let me know what went wrong
instead of simply "we did'nt click"
i really want this r/s back.

i swear i'm suppose to forget you,
but you seemed so happy.
so much for being just a fan.
i didn't knew you this way, hugging people freely and all.
you've changed. i want the old you.. really.
guess thats not gonna happen at all.

you're one of a kind, really.

you shall always be a part of me i guess :(

you

2010-09-09T13:01:00.002+08:00

it has always been yourself that you worry over,
you text me telling me that you did not toy with my feelings,
but thats how i felt. you wrote on twitter telling my friends like
i treated you badly in the past, i never said anything.

just go, i can't get the old you back. but can the new you please
get away from my life. you're fucking annoying whenever i think that you
can just end a relationship like that. well done seriously.

i love you, and i hate you. my life is damn f up ever since you're gone.
what more do you want. you're already so happy now. fml

through

2010-09-08T00:55:00.001+08:00

i've thought things through,
she's not coming back anw if she wasn't serious.
haha so long never get played in r/s, it sucks really.
but i shall try my best to get over her completely.
gosh, my 5 months wasted on her sian.

haha jolie lim, i love you but you had to toy with my feelings.
idk what you want exactly but over means over le ba.

thoughts

2010-09-06T04:39:00.002+08:00

well, i think i can try being her friend all over again..
hopefully that will get her back? idk :(
i miss her ba.. its's nearing 5 and i can;t sleep.
going to malaysia tomorrow, hopefully have fun there..

i bought my new braun buffel wallet yeay :)
buy with my own money hehe so happy.
actually i asked for $50 from my dad but apparently
it;s too much for him.
the reason why i wanted a change of wallet is
because i didn't know my brown checkered wallet is
trying to copy LV..
so ps lor..
then the $50 for my bday also kena scolded :(

i remember how when i was p5 my dad said
"4 years later i'll get whatever you want, now is tough times
daddy promised to make it up to you"

well, 5 years later i still can't get what i wanted,
and yet i'm always scolded for breaking my promises.
i wonder who is the biggest liar in the family?

i think i fail greatly as a human,
i'm not good looking, i'm not rich,
and i don't do well for my studies..

i think my parents are really unreasonable but
i can't quarrel with them, in the end they will still win.
fucking hate my life, so much to tahan.

i'm not superman i guess.

holding on

2010-09-04T10:11:00.000+08:00

i can't let go of her, why the fk did i fall so deeply in love with her..
she won't come back, i know that but i can't let this go :(
i miss jolie :(
come back, please?
:(
:(
:(

i've given up

2010-09-01T23:47:00.002+08:00

well.. this few days wthout her have been really awful.
smoking,cutting and more smoking..
i missed her badly, i guess she's just not coming back..
she changed a lot, i guess i'm just in love with the old her.
the new her make me feel kinda disgusted? idk whats the word for it..
i love the times i spend with her, times where we would just love spending time together on the bus, hugging each other, her helping me blow my hair, me just being quiet and admiring her. well, these days are gone and i got to move on.

well this may be the last time i'm saying it but: i love you jolie, if only one day you want me back, you just have to say it and i'm sure my heart will belong to you again.

all that can be said are spoken, i guess i should be getting used to heartbreak by now. /wrist max

sad

2010-08-28T00:46:00.001+08:00

gosh i still can't get her back..
walau she in love over this yog guy when they only dk know for how long nia :(
really wondering if the breakup is her losing feelings or what :(
i need the chance again.. if not i really dk wht to do.. help :(

she's gone

2010-08-25T11:42:00.002+08:00

yeap, 4 months plus of r/s gone just like that.. idk what happened in between but she sure did changed alot in just two days.. i'm feeling very terrible.. i miss her and i want her back.. how, when i'm all alone, i just thought of the times we spent together. can't believe i will cry over her :( she ain't willing to give the r/s another try, maybe i just suck at r/s :(

cold war

2010-08-13T17:36:00.002+08:00

just started a cold war, i really hate her atitude now.
tell her many times le she don't understand sia fml.
i think i'm a failure.
can i go on, will i hold on? :(

:(

2010-07-29T22:55:00.001+08:00

it's been 4 months and somehow i feel there are differences between us :(
i still love you but it's just the little things that you do which adds up :(
i want us to last i really do, this would probably be my final serious r/s cause if this end it would be hard to find another girl like you..
how? :(

bored

2010-07-16T10:27:00.000+08:00

lifes getting boring for me, my dads oversea and my mum is now working.
so i'm currently home alone. btw, i got inked :)
it has been 3 months with her and i want it to last !!

Love you :)

2010-06-09T02:57:00.001+08:00

Hey all, sorry for not posting much!
Its been more than two months and we are still goijng strong :)
i love JL, hehe.
nowadays nothing much happen just that get back my results so sian aiyoyo, bye!

monthsary :)

2010-04-26T21:57:00.001+08:00

its been a month, many more to come :D
woaijlzy

Prom comm

2010-04-22T22:40:00.002+08:00

Hey All!!
sex or what, alvin and i organizing prom this year.
prior top this many things happen but lets just say ppl are fucking living in their own world.
like so what if things get disapprove, this prove that you are'nt capable enough to get it approve.
And me trying to make prom a success by encouraging you guys to do one while my friends do one, my received reply was its o level year and you guys have no time..
seriously la, just fuck off.
i swear if a person say that in my face i will fucking punch the person without a doubt.
Cb la damn tulan, all these feelings being bottled up.
not that its from the same ppl but this type of encounter definitely is'nt the first few.
And im being damn serious about this,if logic is on your side, you would not have to come up with some lousy comeback to counter someone who is my senior and in a way, mentor.
The fact that you do not know about him is nothing peculiar.
In fact i dun expect my "future juniors" to remember me or whatsoever as i return to ngee ann.

thats all for now, i still hope i can make prom a success now that people know its me and alvin planning prom.
super stressed, sheesh. :(

happy much?

2010-04-07T22:54:00.000+08:00

im now using the computer after eating supper and coming back from night study :)
this few days of night study really useful. At least i did more than just lazing at home!
Im getting a film camera and an itouch soon!!
This year maybe got no prom but fear not! Alvin and me decide to be nice ppl and attempt to plan for prom :>
wait awhile ah, i go wash cup.....

BACK

oh ya hor, my idiot damn good lei. like dunno how to say but just good la :S
Finally stepped down from scout but i tell you this wun be the last of me in scout uniform!!!!!

pissed

2010-03-28T11:30:00.000+08:00

this past week have been a mixture of feelings for me.
so many things im angry with cb.
especially ytd when the security guard come out and scold my friends,
i could have just punched his face but no, we are going to lodge a complaint to the management. I really want to see him lose his job, hurling vulgarities at us before understanding what happens, challenging us to a fight.
fuck, im really very pissed.
Anpther incident was when someone prmised to get things done but could'nt do it.
nothing was done to rectify the problem. CB one more time like that i swear im going to fight back. fucking say everything so nice in front of girls, then end up can't do anything. wtf la grow up cb.

fuck i really damn pissed this week.
luckily theres a bitch which i can look forward to :>

March holidays :(

2010-03-19T02:54:00.002+08:00

Its the holidays now and even though its 3 in the morning somehow i still feel awake.
As usual there would be jobweek for me during march holidays and this year i met a few interesting people :)
I failed my CCA prelim report btw and i admit that i did'nt give my all.
Im going to chiong for the june one and do a good job!

i broke my front spoke on my bike :(
i want to get an itouch soon!!!!
went arcade today hahaha, like no life lolol.
ITS A BORING MARCH HOLIDAY!

gone :(

2010-03-10T16:44:00.000+08:00

got dumped ytd. sad much :(
camps coming up soon starting from friday 4d3n.
if i pass my CCA prelim report got another camp.

why are relationships so easily broken? :(

hesitations;

2010-02-22T21:39:00.002+08:00

been long since i blogged.
finally have a bike with a satisfactory set-up bvut then agn damn burn money.
i want to get an i touch sia.
oh sch has been difficult with the test all that. chem dun understand anything.

im nt sure if getting together was a mistake or not but im trying hard to prove the statement wrong in as many ways as possible. would it be better if we understood each other better? argh, hesitations hesitations..

tulan

2010-01-14T22:32:00.000+08:00

wa knnbccb fucking tulan.
okay ytd i got suspended because i skept class.
so my dad being an asshole decided that i should not ride for two weeks.
den today i wanted to buy a new bag for sch and since my bro spent lots of money on spectacles, i wanted to buy the crumpler bag.
my dad at first step one nice he say i give him the budget, i tolh him no le but he insist.
so i tell him $200 lor, come on la crumpler lei.
he say no only $50.
ccb if he no money den early just say 50 bucks cannot meh.
ccb la fml really hate my dad, fucked up sia.

new year!

2010-01-01T14:15:00.001+08:00

went for new year celebration ytd.
finished survival camp on th 31st.
damn tired la sial.
whole body still itching fr the mosquito!
k thts all fr nw

thoughts

2009-12-19T14:01:00.002+08:00

hello im back fr the chalet!
Now im having sunburnt.
The rain just wun stop!

Yea so what if i love you, i want this feeling to die off yet i wan to see you so much. It sucks really bad :(

chalet

2009-12-18T23:27:00.001+08:00

im currently at skaters chalet. haha
fucking fun siol, drinking and tonning.
went to wild wild wet for th first time today.
nows th second day, ppl left tonning are lincoln, ashraf, joyce and i.

haha, got abit high and pulled off a few tricks.
kk, im going to play card games, bye~~

Job done!

2009-12-13T22:26:00.002+08:00

i went for the health promotion board commercial shoot!
it was damn fun haha can meet lots of new frens.
i earned money most shiok part.
i bought a new mp3 player and knee guard so now im selling my ipod.

p.s. why the fuck must this happen?

BYE.

Rantings~

2009-12-04T01:08:00.002+08:00

okay lets start about energy conservation course.
The acc i create online got problem, sp services does thing w/o any efficiency.

Heard from my fellow PL that can wear home clothes to energy conservation course so decided to let the scouts wear something more comfortable so told them to wear home clothes but must have long pant. Turns out they cant wear but due to my acc problem, i nvr attend the course.
While sleeping the scouts called "hello this is *, (names ppl) called to say fuck you)"
Seriously wtf man, its obvious its a miscommunication and they cant explain to the teacher when they got scolded?
Furthermore this piece of info was passed down fr a leader, are they going to call the leader and fuck him? If no den they shud just stfu in the first place.

Another thing, for the scouts that are wondering why this year no night cycling, its because of a particular mr tmr. When i planned for the night cycling, he told th leaders he and i came up with the idea (in th hope of getting some badge i guess) so i let him plan the dates andd meeting time since im done wit th route.
But obviously mr tmr left everything to be done TMR.

My parents like to help my brother whenever he is in th wrong, knnccb he how old le everything still say im th older one.

AH FUCK ALL THIS SHIT LA, ENOUGH IS ENOUGH

cca ceremony

2009-11-28T21:52:00.002+08:00

attended the cca ceremony today!
NAWST damn zai haha.
Lets continue the tradition next yr woohoo!

2 more days to my birthday,
not intending to get anything
from my family judging from what they gave
or rather not gave on my birthday.

now i just wish things to be like before......

holiday

2009-11-16T00:25:00.002+08:00

So far holiday has been okay.
Basically riding everyday.
Seen my tagboard and realised tht ppl
thinks i dunno whats a r/s.
dunno la heck care la.
Shud i just give up or hold on to
a hope that she may juat say yes?
damn sian, really.
fuck it la, maybe i really suck at everything.

EAP IS OVER!

2009-11-13T17:29:00.014+08:00

eap has finally ended!
This is when the real holiday starts!
The other scouts are now at new zealand enjoying themselves!
Lets hope my dad give me money to spend in singapore haha.
Need to get a job urgently,
If nt my holidays is going to be like shit.

I want a steady relationship badly,
Just hope that xs will say yes.

eap

2009-11-11T21:18:00.002+08:00

eap is seriously damn waste of time..
dunno go sch for what, can wait to go and work!
will be having quite a few camp during th holidays though.
not dying my hair because camps mostly scout.
and because of camp i think i closing my ear hole.
and knnccb still cant forget her.

something to look forward to th holiday is my birthday,
think going to ask fren out catch a movie or something.

its over

2009-10-27T10:56:00.000+08:00

now got nothing on le, damn sian la.
Fuck this thing.
Btw i get back my result le and i dun think i will retain.
I think im going to wait awhile before asking the qn again..
K, bye

16 oct

2009-10-16T23:41:00.002+08:00

today went sch make ic after tht stayed back watch bball training
rushed home after their training ended, bathe and went to meet xs.
went to watch 500 days of summer.
not bad luh.
den go wisma find rong shun.
after that took bus send her home.
went to sp2 find shawn they all, biked a little.
slacked then went home and bathe.
now im here.
nights :)

Night study

2009-10-08T17:24:00.002+08:00

im now at night study blogging wit jia kang new phone. Damn sian ppl being two faced. Fml. Still haven eat dinner yet. This two day exams can manage la. I want promote go sec 4 next year. Our sch the new librarian vry kaopei. Dun like la! Nowadays ppl are getting so fake you cant tell what they are thinking.

airport

2009-09-28T21:38:00.002+08:00

studied at airport ytd, damn cold sia.
after studying went to eat wit rs.
went to uniqlo and saw a jacket that i want to buy.
today the day very long..
something happened while i was at the airport,
now i just dunno what i want to type..
lame la marcus. nowadays everything is so boring..

happy/sad

2009-09-27T00:19:00.002+08:00

so long nvr update my blog.
i went biking just nw and i saw P.
really shocked, got speechless.
she changed alot.
just hope that she dun do anything wrong agn...
this made me thought of the past agn :(

first class hike

2009-09-06T20:03:00.001+08:00

my first class hike is finally over.
now left the hike log.
JIAYOU MARCUS!
my leg got burnt sia, damn stupid.

the 100th!

2009-08-23T00:10:00.001+08:00

this is my 100 post!
i cant get to sleep and i chat wit xiao shi on msn.
she jia you-ed me for my 180!
im going to pull it off!!
come on marcus u can do it!

school!

2009-08-13T21:01:00.001+08:00

was late for sch today!
nowadays school very boring..
took class photo recently and joined 2 classes in their informal shot.
still cant pull off my 180, damn sad. haaha

thursdays.

2009-08-06T19:57:00.002+08:00

today thursday means i can ride!
but today abit unhappy abt something.
suppose to meet my fren before riding.
then i pangseh my sch frens then in the end the fren not meeting. FML

ECP today

2009-07-25T09:57:00.003+08:00

im going to ecp today!!
ytd ride awhile at the carpark above kfc.
den suddenly we see ppl making out in the car!
we all chiong go see then the guy damn ps..
lols
i almost pulled off 180 ytd but failed.. sian
im going ecp later to watch the competition!

sunday

2009-07-19T13:39:00.002+08:00

its sunday today, feels damn bored, i rather have school.
but at least today can ride!
hope it will be a fruitful session of riding!

Jia Kang Birthday

2009-07-17T22:50:00.000+08:00

today is jia kang birthday!!
can see that jia kang very happy!!
i find one sec 2 girl fr my sch damn chio OMG!
My 180 like shit, sian ttm..

k whatever, bye

fruitful day

2009-07-11T22:35:00.002+08:00

today was spend quite fruitfully!
woke up slack awhile, bathed and went for church event!
then took bus to tampines and took mrt to orchard to meet mum!
had dinner tgt, damn filling sia.
den went to tampines mall to buy some groceries.
and now im back at home.
tmr relative coming my hse..
cant ride, cant go church service sian..
but at least today nvr hear my dad bark!
HAHA

weekend my lan

2009-07-04T15:02:00.002+08:00

wa now is saturday weekend lei!
but CB i cant go ride or anywhea.
must go eat dinner with family.
den nvm, before that my dad tell me what must spend more time with family
den right aft that my mum ask me go eat dinner tgt, i can say no meh!!!
KNNB CCB!
den i ask my dad what time we will be back from dinner,
den cb he screen my msn he ask me why in tht CB tone
i KNN sibei dulan.
FUCK LA

Sentosa!

2009-06-26T12:17:00.002+08:00

went to sentosa ytd wit jia kang, rong shun, yong hao, tse siang and eric.
had fun playing on the beach and burying ppl.
oh ya, english webquest damn difficult..
haha. holidays are ending!! yes!

bias

2009-06-20T23:44:00.001+08:00

i just thought over some things and i realise i have unfair parents!!
for starters, they give my bro $5 for a meal while they give me $4 for a meal.
Then, when my bro and i argue, my mum will help me bro.
My dad everytime side wit my mum.
My mum thinks she give birth to me so she big fuck.
CB. i really want to die

BACK FR CAMP!

2009-06-12T23:54:00.002+08:00

i am finally back from camp!
every june we have a scout camp,
and just like what marcus sir say,
every year the activities is somewhat the same but the experiance is different.
the plc got the badges le then go call for firedrill. HAHA!

HOLIDAYS!!

2009-06-02T20:31:00.002+08:00

the holiday is here!
my dad made an agreement with me,
every weekday study for 2 hours then
weekend is up to me to spend!!

haha, so now i like can everyday ride bike!!
hey im selling a sony earphone black in colour for $50.
dun mind help me spread the msg. thanks :)

i will be having tuition for math,
somehow looking forward to it i dunno why.

whenever ride bike, when i see couples holding hands,
i felt an aching in me.. is like actually can accept others de..
yet i choose to wait..
haix.. ignorance is bliss :D

hair check

2009-05-25T20:30:00.002+08:00

wa today hair check my hair got caught.
the school damn cb sia, last week still check.
my hair cut until damn ugly.
luckinly my frens nvr laugh.
but fucking cb the scouts laugh.
i damn tulan so i told them
unless they kneel down and say sorry,
im not going plc.
which i nvr go.was seriously fucking angry
aiya, fuck la, i now rly thinking why i still in scouts.
the ppl inside some so cb de..

Home Alone

2009-05-15T20:07:00.001+08:00

Hi im now home alone and its real boring.
Just came back from tampines mall.
Before tampines mall i went to suntec city wit rs,eric,ernest and basil.
then go beach road buy some things then they went uniqlo.
these few days my dad overseas.
I DAMN HAPPY!!

Im gonna flare up sooner or later.

2009-05-02T00:05:00.002+08:00

tried to went into facebook but it seems that my acc was disabled.
today i went to study wit ian,eric,keith tan, matthew,pei han.
studied at airport till quite late. fr afternoon till evening.

before i went home, i had supper.
i told dad i reaching home at 11.15 but
in the end the bus came at only 11.20.
on my way home he called and he was being real unreasonable.

Firstly, i admitted it was my fault for being late.
he went on to say thast i gave him problems everyday.
im really fucking disapointed in him.
whats going on?
Dad said now exam period so other than schooling will be studying
FUCK MY LIFE.
i dun even think i should call him dad anymore.
one of this days im really going to flare up and give him a piece of my mind.

he nowadays pick on me for no reason.
i feel like dying like seriously.
fuck all this shit...

studies!

2009-04-30T20:04:00.001+08:00

wa, exam is just next wk!!
must studly siol..
but things arent improving..

scout problems, family problems..
it seems that my problems will never end..
haix.. im stilll stressed..

Stressed!

2009-04-29T21:21:00.002+08:00

wa cant believe i said all those things today.
i mean, even though thats what i feel, i didn realise it was so direct.
but whatever la, i hate my life.

today first thing reach home my dad scold vulgarities at me.
nvm, i tahan. i in school may look irritated la but im okay :)
just damn sad that i have nobody to turn to.
both my parents fucked up, why am i evn brought into this world :( :(

tests!!

2009-04-23T21:23:00.002+08:00

this few day so much tests!!
school give tests like free liddat!!
haha, everyday study till late late

just want to say that there is not a need to lie,
im a wee bit disapointed..

Study Week :)

2009-04-20T21:34:00.001+08:00

this week cca ended, so its study week!!
my math is making more and more sense to me!!
this coming saturday is bbq wit cell members!
haha, my dad let me go church!

stressed up

2009-04-14T20:37:00.002+08:00

cb sia, knn my dad damn gl.
he himself nvr talk in a good tone den
he expect me to talk properly.WTF
one of this days im really going to break down.
life is damn unfair.why people no father den i have..
CCB. scouts is giving me other problems.
fk sia..just hope all this will end.

Vivocity!

2009-04-11T19:47:00.002+08:00

Yst went to vivo to celebrate ian's bday and darren's baday!
got alot of ppl go lor, like some gang!
how i wish my bday so much ppl to celebrate wit me.
we go vivo watch fast and furious 4!! i would say its a nice show and
the movie ticket we bought is alot lor!!
den before movie we go cut cake sing song!!

i today went to scout hq go buy my uniform,
den whole day at home transferring th badges.
I WANT GO CHURCH TMR!

New Bag

2009-04-09T20:54:00.002+08:00

my dc shoe bag that lasted me 5 years had spoiled!
so today while following eric to buy ian's present at tampines 1,
i went to miz 29 to buy my dickies bagpack.
the colour is camo lei, still dunno if nice on me or not.
tampines 1 many ppl sia, me and eric go
royal sporting house at tampines mall is as
if we book the whole place like that.
saw wei sia and frens at tampines one and there got action city!!!,
but its damn small. got topman! yea!!

fuck all this shit

2009-04-08T20:04:00.002+08:00

today i fucking tulan, i mswear to god.
i at first tot the worst thing was scout meeting le but
it had to be that after i go home i quarrelled wit
everybody, then mr teo call me to ask the sec 1 and 2 to be in half u tmr,
like wtf, it was jing yang duty.
chee bye, i have enuff of this like seriously,
after the first plc camp,
knn evrything must find me,
ask for time extension ask me to ask,
everything ask me ask,
seriously, you all no mouth ah!!!
NBCB, FUCK YOU ALL

Its over!!

2009-03-28T11:05:00.002+08:00

i dunno why i feel more happy now
but seriously, deep within me, i want to be more than just friends but
really, the scouts and guides bro and sis thing was just crap to me.
since you find it a chore to take the initiative, why bother?

i really miss you :(

rantings.

2009-03-28T10:01:00.002+08:00

ytd went for celestine bday bbq!!
thanks for inviting me even though i only bought a small cake!!
i had fun at the bbq!!
after everything, marcus lim dad send me home!
haha..
today suppose to go for some course but i woke up late.
fk la. its my fault.

today woke up, went blog hopping and found out some things..
i find it really hard to be me now that thing has became like that..
i used to cherish our friendships and stuff but i realise that you are really too much.
its always my fault that u are not happy and stuff but
did you ever realised how many times i said sorry to you once i know you.
truthfully at times it was just to please you, i dun even see a need t apologise.
now that you know me a little better, i guess its over

trust.

2009-03-22T20:56:00.002+08:00

trust. it has a deep meaning to a 5-letter word..
i always thought relationships were built on trust.
regrdless of this, i am still willing to promise you whatever i can.
whatever la, life has always been like that.

Camping Holidays!

2009-03-12T20:02:00.002+08:00

tmr i will be going for camp le so no updates..
it will be job week camp followed by lead for leaders..
5 straight days in sch!!
today completed much of hike log..
while doing science work that time i saw *** *** and i ask for her number!!
haha!! i rock!! yi ren ask her dun give me lor.. lols!!

anyway, i am still contactable throughout the camp but
on 20-21 march the camp i cant use phone.

ok, thats all for today! bye!!

blog-hopping

2009-03-11T21:20:00.002+08:00

i got bored and was reading the scouts blog then found something on jun jie blog:

"Hey, are you busy?" or "Are you doing something?"~
two phrases guys open with to stop from stammering on the phone.

Guys may be flirting around all day but before we go to sleep,
we always think about the girl we truly care about.

Giving a hanging message like "You know what?!..uh..nevermind..."
would make a guy jump to a conclusions far from what you are thinking.

We'll assume we did something wrong and try hard to figure it out.

Guys are good flatterers when courting,but we usually stammer when they talk to a girl they really like.

Girls are guys' weaknesses.

If a guy tells you about his problems, he just needs someone to listen to him.
You don't need to give advice

.Guys use words like hot or cute to describe girls.
We rarely use beautiful, or pretty.If a guy uses that, he likes you a whole hell of a lot.

No matter how much guys talk about boobs,
personality is key.

If the guy does something stupid in front of the girl,
he will think about it for the next couple days or until the next time he spends time with the girl.

When a guy says he is going crazy about the girl, he really is.Guys rarely say that.If a guy starts to talk seriously, listen to him.

It doesn't happen that often, so when it does, you know something's up.

When a guy tells you that you are beautiful, don't say you aren't.It makes them want to stop telling you becausethey don't want you to disagree with them.

When a guy looks at you for longer than a second,he's definitely thinking something.

Guys like femininity not feebleness.Don't be a snob. Guys can be intimidated and give up easily.Guys talk about girls more than girls talk about guys.

If you are going to reject a guy, just do it.Don't say they are like a brother or just good friends,it just hurts even more.

Tell them that you aren'tinterested in a relationship and they will respect you.

Not all guys are assholes.Just because ONE is a jackass doesnt mean he represents ALL of us.

Believe it or not shy guys are the most easiest to talk to.It may not seem right, but trust me they will start opening up like books after you just ask them questions about their lives and unoticably tell them about yours.

When a guy sacrifices his sleep and health just to be with you,he really likes you and wants to be with you as much as possible.

i found all this damn true lor!!
haha

plc hike

2009-03-10T21:04:00.000+08:00

bloody hell the plc hike log lost. cb!
all the efforts go down the drain! FUCK LA

sian-ed

2009-03-03T20:06:00.002+08:00

wa bloody shit!!
today i realised the true meaning of a snob..
fking shag sia!!
luckily still got true fren bodoh..
oh, b4 i forget, ***** is damn cute can!
omg! her eye nose mouth ear hand leg!!
wa! CAN MAKE IT!! haha

just when i thot i had a new fren,
u have to be the one to spoil it all

COMMON TEST!!

2009-02-27T20:31:00.002+08:00

today is the second day of commojn test and monday will be the last day!
today went to watch east zone semi finals wit jia kang and cynthia!
cant believe that me and cynthia still
got contact even though we only kindergarten frens!
Sunday got ppl going queensway buy shoe and i also want to go!!
i've not been going to church since last yr, feeling guilty.
shall go soon, right after test!!

just want to say that
thanks for everything
whoever you think u are
if you are worth my thanks

randoms

2009-01-24T18:11:00.002+08:00

its nw saturday and im not at cell..
next week will be the hike..shit sia..
i dunno wuts going on now..
this sucks
ytd went airport wanted to send carmen off tgt wit ian they all
but thnks to my parents..
fk la!!

koref (detailed)

2009-01-18T17:32:00.002+08:00

i've read ppls blog and decide to go into the details on wut happen!!

Day 1
met shu qi at her house playground and
took the longer bus route to sch.
purposely went sc late dun want waste time
but in the end only late for like 5-10 mins. -_-
den reach sch hear them tok rubbish, this and that.
waste time finish le went to took a bus and i keep
changing seats and finally sat wit shi yong.
Our sl is jacintha and yi liang. during the bus ride
the girls all started singing den until like concert lidddat haha..
we cleared the customs fast and was the first class to reach tuas checkpoint.
then when we changed to a local bus, we handed over
wallets,pasports and handphones.
wa the bus ride damn long and i even forgotten if i slept.
being the first class to reach koref, we waited for the other class
and assembled at the multi purpose hall.
reached there, wasted time, listen safety talk,
teach us how to pitch dome tents.
vry difficult meh?!
den we went to pitch tents.
chiong-ed that part
go back assemble to eat lunch.
after lunch, played class bonding games
then can say that we bonded??
dunno wut happened had dinner then go night walk
see the star like hang on tree liddat
after lights out, actually wanted to play daidi but
was too lazy to wait for sl to go away so me and wei bin
took our medicines and tried to sleep but the spotlight damn irritating
wanted to ask sl off the spotlight but since the MPH light
off le so walk back but when walking back we saw shadows so
all started to run back and lie down that time got one guy come.
that guy is Mr. pitch-dome-tent den he say we were
playing at girls area and even claimed we went into the tent.
he ask us if want fall in or not den we huh him alot of times.
Then, Mr bear came and ask us to fall in.
The conversation damn funny but th most
important part is he trying to act fierce by adding AHH at the end of his sentence.
Mr bear:"So you three jokers think it is
funny to wander ard girls area AHH?" (looks at me)
Me:"NO AHH!"
i dunno why i said that but weibin barely
stifled his laughter when i started to laugh.
Even ryan and tse siang hiding in the tents almost laugh.
den i forgot wut happen le de we sleep

Day 2
we morning wake up le go do stupid pt.
den Mr bear announced wut happened
last night den mr hazmi talk to me.
he tell me weibin and yong hao admitted.
dunno he trying to say wut la so i just told him
my part of the story and we were punished
not to go to gunung lambak.
EVEN UNTIL NOW I DUNNO I PUNISH COS
THEY TOT I GO GIRLS TENT OR BCOS I WAS RUDE TO MR BEAR
so really zo bo at campsite other then clean up.
one day alrdy so much rubbish.we saw a bra and actually wanted to throw tht away.
waste time until my class come back.missed them so much <3
did bamboo rafting and water obstacles.
fell into the water which was vry fun
oh ya.. had lunch before this lols
wash up bathe and changed into camp tee
den went for campfire
SORRY R7 I DID A SHIT JOB IN CAMPFIRE
after campfire we had reflections den they ask abt mountain climbing
wa sian dao..
den 2 nd night jus make ourselves real tired and sleep

Day 3
morning wake up chiong pack my bag den go assemble.
did rafting den our class all float damn happy.
after dat go play captain ball and SORRY CLASS I SUCK!!
even though our class nvr get first but wut matters is we really bonded!!

WHO YOU WANNA BE AH NO. 1 AH!
WHO YOU WANNA BE AH R7 WARRIOR!
FIGHT! FIGHT! FIGHT! LIKE A CHAMPION
WIN! WIN! WIN! LIKE A CHAMPION
FIGHT LIKE A CHAMPION
WIN LIKE A CHAMPION
GO~ R7!!!

koref

2009-01-17T18:35:00.002+08:00

lalalas~
im back fr koref
had fun especially on th first night wit the guys at night
counter strike and hide and seek!!
but 1 cb ruin it all!! haha
overall i think my class really bonded!!
happy siol!! 3R7 09' huat ah!
R7 OOI! hahaha

who do you think i am to you??
a doll ah? u talk to me as and when you like..
confused

not feeling well

2009-01-06T18:34:00.002+08:00

shit.. today didnt attend school..was too sick..
went to th doctor and was given like 5 diff medicine?
sucks man..
bad cough!! throat damn dry..
cant attend cca
shit ttm!! :(

it ended

2008-12-25T00:50:00.001+08:00

it ended and i was th shit who ended it..
jus felt that we it shud end..
it may sound like shit but rly,
bye

blur

2008-12-18T20:20:00.001+08:00

KNNBCCB!! u blur den dun say we nvr tell you!!
u dun give a shit alrdy den say until bcome our fault..fuck la
damn pissed off..
he is th first guy make me feel like quitting scouts..

NAWST PLTC 08'

2008-12-16T13:11:00.002+08:00

wah.. sch reopening still got camp..
now busy preparing for pltc hike..
can u guys give a shit abt dis?
why is it dat only a few of us care abt dis?
u all nid go out wit family, like th rest dunnid liddat..
u guys are just selfish..
fuck la..

happy belated to me!

2008-12-01T22:42:00.002+08:00

ytd was my bday and many thanks to scouts that celebrated wit me during npc..
ytd finally spend time wit her..and on th last night i too tired so i slept wit the male doves :)
thanks danny fo waking me up

on 27th november 2008,
8 boys were sent from ngee ann wichita to
go for the National Patrol Camp 2008
we went wit 8 but came back wit 6
the tampines district bonded strongly
and we all achieved at least a bronze award.
Ngee Ann Wichita maintained the Silver award
Friends were make throughout the camps
this short experience is enough
to last in our memories for the whole lifetime

its war time

2008-11-26T23:05:00.000+08:00

tmr going for npc at sarimbun!
guys wish me luck!!
today we went to standardise our hair
BOTAK!!

NPC

2008-11-26T00:02:00.002+08:00

today seriously not in good mood..
no specific reasons..
went down wit th seniors to get stuff from beach road for npc..
one word : STANDARDISE!
tmr shud be going out wit family
to eat dinner to celebrate my bday in
advance but i dunno want to go or not..
my overll seriously wasted.. 6 marks..
im still missing waking up to the shouts of fall in..
im still missing seeing flags being stolen..
im still missing eating wit steadfast patrol..
im just missing pltc more and more..

I realised

2008-11-16T20:37:00.003+08:00

jus realised dat i am 6 marks away in my overall b4
my dad let me pierce my ear..sian sia..
i now want to change alot of parts in my bike then ride more..
i next year if my dad confiscate my ang pao, i think we cant even be father and son le!
i noe abit lame but this few days many things happened so wun want to say it out here..
sayang im seriously sry..
i miss you and i still ove you..

randoms;

2008-11-11T21:37:00.001+08:00

i dunno y but i sorta feel that i shud not have quitted sc..
anyway wuts done is done..
i felt this change within me suddenly..
not sure how to explain but for sure the change is bad.
i now like save not enough money all this den uncle val u better watch out.
i now having all this limits thanks to val
cb dog! i tulan le
i think nowadays i very impatient..
hopefully all this shall end..
5 years is a long wait..wait le so wat?
life is like this.. one day i shall end this all.. haix..
i like keep finding fault wit everythings liddat..
my mood still haven change to battle mode for npc yet
dunno wuts wrong wit me but i now tok lesser to family le..
i may look happy but deep inside is just a person struggling wit a sad life
u all may think its ok so far but y must there be ppl hurting my family?
all this shit have to stop one day..
i dun want to be like this but i feel dat i am changiong to the old me..
this sux..
try waiting so much for something for 5 years
when it all comes to a point when u noe its just a lie..
fuck it
i have enuff le
my mum nagging le
bye

PLTC

2008-11-11T21:37:00.000+08:00

i am missing pltc!!
i miss steadfast and gilwell subcamp!
not feeling well today..gg training late
well done gilwell!!